After a week of social isolation in order to deal with some difficult things, a thought struck me today. It felt like another piece of a puzzle snapping into place, a puzzle that I am constantly trying to arrange. I ponder on a regular basis who I am and where is my place in this life. This evening I was reminded of an inherent trait that I exhibit on a regular basis. Sometimes it is to my detriment, but more often than not it paves the way and readies a path with sure footing. I am deliberative. If I say or do something, it almost always has good reason (to me) behind it. Whether or not I can communicate that is a whole other issue. If you ask me why, be prepared to LISTEN for a LONG time and ASK clarifying questions when I don't make sense to you. (Maybe I'm wrong. I am always up for learning.) I realize that this often makes me hard to deal with as I over think and over plan, but it also makes me a great asset and someone who carries much MEANING and PASSION, especially in my love for others. It also leaves me being serious, boarded up, and private. I open up, but to a select few. These are the people whom I TRUST and LOVE dearly. These are the people who can hurt me the most. That is why I choose them carefully. I would hope that these same people have come to VALUE my complexity and depth instead of find it an error.
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